| the book is better |
[24 May 2006|03:26pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 aggravated |
] |
I'm sick of this journal... I created it almost five years ago and I don't want to use it anymore.
so..
please add ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) thebookisbetter to your friends... IMMEDIATELY!!!!!!!!
|
|
| i fear 6 out of 51 things... because i rock |
[15 Mar 2006|09:57pm] |
I FEAR:
[ ] the dark
[ ] staying single
[ ] getting married
[ ] being a parent
[x] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[ ] heights
[ ] cats
[ ] dogs
[ ]birds
[x] spiders and/or other insects
[ ] driving or being in cars
[ ] flying
[x] being put to sleep (anesthesia)
[ ] flowers or other plants
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[ ] water
[ ] the ocean
[ ] pools
[x] failure
[ ] success
[ ] germs
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] mice/rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] cemeteries
[ ] clowns
[ ] large crowds
[ ] demons or evil
[ ] crossing bridges
[ ] Hell
[ ] Heaven
[ ] being robbed
[ ] being sexually assulted
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibility
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes
[ ] hurricanes
[ ] being punished
[ ] diseases, including cancer and STD's
[ ] snakes
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] poverty
[ ] ghosts
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains or railroads
[ ] fear
[ ] being alone
[ ] losing my friends
[x] being blind
[x] being deaf
[ ] growing up
[ ]aliens
[ ]drugs
[ ]sex
[ ]sharp objects
[ ]dead people
[ ]blood
[ ]gays/lesbians
[ ]pain
[ ]the guys who wear turbans and work at gas stations/deli's
[ ]midgets
repost saying i fear _ out of 51 things
|
|
| awake |
[09 Mar 2006|03:23am] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Bright Eyes - Kathy with a K's song |
] |
I start my new job tomorrow at 10AM sharp but I will probably have to leave around 7:30 or earlier because my borrowing my mom's company's car hasn't happened yet so she has to drive me... or I have to drive her... either one.
Joe's been sick, he thinks he's dying... he's running a fever and he's nauseous all the time. I read to him until he fell asleep. Reading aloud woke me up more than tired me. I'm not thinking about what the book was talking about (anthrax)... I'm more thinking about why I can't sleep.
So basically, right now I'm just doing all of the things I can do now that I had been planning on doing in the morning... like make lunches, pick out my clothes, and straighten the front of my hair (there's no point in straightening the back because it's probably raining tomorrow, so really, there's no point in straightening any of it).
PLEASE FALL ASLEEP.
|
|
| trying to fall back asleep |
[28 Feb 2006|05:13am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 awake |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
The Most Serene Republic - Where Cedar Nouns and Adverbs Walk |
] |
I'm trying to fall back asleep so I can wake up at 7 and be rested...
70 things about me
1. Ever been given a ring? I got a ring from my dad... and I got 4 rings from Joe
2. Single/taken? taken
3. What are you listening to? see "[music]"
4. How many times have you dropped your cell today? i dropped my mom's cell earlier
5. I'll make up my own question... uhhh... are you very organized? no but I want to be
6. Things you spend a lot of money on? food, movie rentals, art supplies
7. Three things you ate last? a sammich, a cadbury egg, spaghetti
8. First thing you notice about the opposite sex? hair
9. One favorite song? I can't even think with that question
10 & 11 are missing?!
12. Cell phone service provider: sprint
13. Favorite store in the mall: DQ
14. Longest job held: selling oil paintings?
15. Do you own a pair of dice? yeah probably in storage
16. Do you prank call people? haven't in years
17. Last wedding attended? my aunt Aimee's I believe
18. First friend you'd call if you won the lottery: kelsi
19. Last time you attended church: a few months ago for joe's niece's christening
20. Favorite fast food restaurant? taco bell
21. Biggest lie you have heard? not sure
22. Favorite vacation spot? washington state
23. Where's your favorite place to eat with friends? golden apple, golden nugget, or golden angel
24. Can you cook? yeah i'm pretty alright
25. What car do you drive? usually my mom's Ford Focus
26. Best kisser? Joe
27. Last time you cried? earlier when Joe left for his mom's and i didn't want to sleep alone so I cried.
28. Most hated food? olives and mushrooms
29. Thing you like most about yourself: my social skills
30. Thing you hate most about yourself: my complete and horrible fear of truly embarrassing myself
31. Who's someone who can make you laugh no matter what? kelsi, joe, amy
32. Longest shift you have worked at a job? over 15 hours
33. Favorite movie? rushmore? i don't know... that's what i want to watch right now
34. Can you sing? i think so
35. Last concert attended: i don't even remember
36. Last song sang? some unique chique song probably
37. Last movie bought? who knows!
38. what's with all of the missing ones?
39. Things you never leave home without: license
40. What are you gonna do now that you're done: i'm not done?
41. First dentist's name: dr o'malley i think
42. First CD you owned: spice girls lol
43. Did you have a Furby? nope
44. Do you own more than 3 pairs of sneakers? do converse count as sneakers? if not, then I only own one pair and that's my light up shoes, but if converse do count then i have over 3 pairs, yes
45. Does your birthday ever fall on a holiday? yes
46. Do you own a game system? not personally but joe has a ps2
47. Do you have an MP3 player or an iPod? nope
48. How many uncles and aunts do have? on my mom's side i have 2 aunts and 3 uncles plus 2 in-law uncles and an in-law aunt... on my dad's side i have 3 aunts and 2 uncles and an in-law uncle
49. What was the last book you read? i don't even remember... that's so sad
50. Have you ever had the chicken pox? nope
51. Who was your 6th grade homeroom teacher's name? mrs riley
52. Do you like to read? yes.
53. What are your top 3 favorite movies? uhh i dunno... rushmore, labyrinth, whatever
54. What is your favorite band? uhh they might be giants, bright eyes, or death cab for cutie
55. What are 5 of your favorite songs (not THE 5 favorites)? i'm not answering this
56. Have you ever spent the night at a house with the opposite sex? yes
57. Do you like camping? yes and no
58. If you have a neighbor and they have a dog, what is its name? i wouldn't know
59. What is your mom's maiden name? sloan
60. Have you lived in the same house all your life? hells no.
61. Do you wish you were someone else right now? i wish i was me, but a lot more talented
62. What is your least favorite color? certain yellows gross me out
63. How many times do you wait for the phone to ring before you pick up? once if i'm around and see the phone
64. Do you sleep in your bed? i sleep in the water bed that was here when we moved in
65. Have you ever chased something through your house? joe
66. What are you saving up to buy? a cruise
67. What are the 3 best books you have ever read? i don't know
68. What song(s) do you have on a CD/MP3 player/iPod/computer that people would be surprised that you have? justin timberlake?
69. What movie scared you to death when you were little? child's play
70. Have you ever been rock climbing? indoors, yeah
|
|
| effin nose. |
[17 Feb 2006|06:55am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 sore |
] |
drinking water is easier than I thought. I mean getting the 8 glasses. I don't know. normally I choose kool-aid over water but lately I don't want anything but water.
Joe made some super good stir fry earlier.
I don't want to drink more water right now because I want to fall asleep and not piss myself.
i hate my bed. it makes my entire life hurt.
my face hurts really bad (yes, it's killing you) especially in the eyes and nose. I have a crappy headache for sure.
I wish I just had a searing pain in one place instead of the dullest grinding pain everywhere.
I hope Kelsi's feeling better. I wish I hadn't been so antsy all day so I could have stayed and talked to her more... but, alas, when every muscle hurts I just don't feel like having light radiated into my eyes.
like right now... I think as much as I can't stand my bed, it's gotta be better than this.
good bye, cruel journal.
|
|
| You know how I know the new ACE inhibitor works? |
[14 Feb 2006|04:45pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 bored |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Bright Eyes - First Day Of My Life |
] |
I don't understand long journal entries anymore. I think the easiest thing to talk about in length is heart ache or just any romantic anxiety. Whether or not that exists or will exist in my life is irrelevant because I don't even want to discuss that topic publicly any longer. I still want to write something substantial about something. I just can't think of anything anymore.
I haven't really been outside in a while. I mean, I haven't hung out outside. It seems rather nice out today and would be a good day for me to go out but I am perpetually needing to clean because I just always seem to fall asleep before I can pick up the sponge or fold the shirt. I think what I will do is get dressed and open all of the blinds and most of the windows. This place really needs to get aired out.
I'm back on my House, MD kick. It's pretty much all I feel like watching. I've missed most of season 2 so I hope I will remember to watch tonight (on Fox at 8/9.. check your local listings). Perhaps I will record it for Joe. It's nice when everyone in the house is into the same things as you. Well... it's usually nice... sometimes it sucks because you're like "hey, get off my shit, okay?" but this isn't one of those times. It's just nice that I can sit in a car with Joe or my mom and we can listen to Birdhouse in Your Soul and everyone's smiles. And it's double nice that I can sit down with either of them and watch like 3 episodes of House in a row.
Well... that's really all I can think of for now. I am rather tired. Sadly. I'm often tired. I think I need to see a chiropractor/reflexologist.
I'm posting this on myspace too... birds and stones, people.
|
|
| kelsi is my hero. |
[14 Feb 2006|02:58pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
somewhat alive |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Bright Eyes - First Day Of My Life |
] |
and right now, i'm gonna get joe ready to leave, then i'm gonna pee, then i'm gonna write a long journal for kelsi to read because she's bored as eff.
|
|
| i think you're pretty updatable |
[08 Feb 2006|06:44pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
bored |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Unique Chique - Profile |
] |
myspace is always either broken or boring... I don't feel like... hmm.. all of a sudden i feel like folding laundry.
okay that's good... my mom's alarm clock just went off, ending her nap.
OKAY, WEDNESDAY... BE OVER NOW.
wow. don't waste my life, me. good bye.
|
|
|
[31 Jan 2006|06:48pm] |
There are certain times where I don't want to be like Kelsi. which is why i'm staying as far from WoW as possible.
i know i'll have more fun than i am right now and that makes me nervous as shit.
i love you, kelsi, you nerd.
|
|
| cookies |
[30 Jan 2006|11:33am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 amused |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
They Might Be Giants - Don't Let's Start |
] |
a lot is oing on in my life i guess but why don't you just go look at my myspace... i have an intense urge to make cookies... cut out ones.
later
|
|
| birthday |
[16 Jan 2006|02:31pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
whatever |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
They Might Be Giants - Rhythm Section Want Ad |
] |
happy birthday to me.
|
|
| Things I Want Pt.: 50 |
[10 Jan 2006|04:57pm] |
|
Dear Santa,
I know it's January, but I would really like some wall charts (much like for guitar chords) with the following information:
1. a table of ascii characters and symbols and their html name and #s
2. basic tags and attributes (html)
3. an html + rgb color chart
I think visibone.com might have some of those things, Santa, so you have no reason not to indulge my nerdiness. DO IT.
Love Always,
Aurora
|
|
| Casey Makes Me Happy |
[28 Dec 2005|10:16am] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Mattie Makes Me Crazy |
] |
The Year 2005:
[P L A C E S]
1. Went out of the country? yes
2. Moved? yes
3. New school? no
4. How many times on an airplane? 3
5. Road trips? a few
[Y O U]
1. Have you changed?: definitely
2. New friends? way
3. Make a mistake? oh yeah
4. Biggest conflict this year? february-march
5. Most depressed time this year? it came and went until june
[L O V E]
1. Did you have a summer fling? no
2. Did you get heartbroken? i thought so but no
3. Who was your summer love? late summer... Joe
4. Did you date during the year? yes
5. Favorite date over the summer? that smelly pond with joe
6. Meet someone amazing? Joe Starita
[S E A S O N S]
1. Favorite Season? when they aren't happening, I like all of them
2. Least favorite season? all of them
3. Good birthday? horrible... 2006 will be awesome
4. Any snow this year? yes indeed
5. Highest temperature? I wouldn't know... I wasn't much of one for leaving the house
[F I N A L Q U E S T I O N S]
Snuck out? I've never really needed to but I did sneak out in a sense to meet Joe a couple times
Met a person who will change your life? Joe
Kept your resolution? I don't know what they were
Got arrested? not this year
Had a first something- yes
Drank Alcohol - yes
Smoked weed/drugs? no
Did anything illegal? probably since a lot of common things like jaywalking are illegal
Kissed a girl - yes
Had a crush- yes
Lost a family member? yes
Got suspended - no
Moved states? yes
Started a band - a rubberband chain
Spent over 1 million dollars? heavens no
Done something you shouldn't have? yes
Kept a secret? yes
Changed your view on things? yes
|
|
| I have many ways to waste time |
[27 Dec 2005|06:35pm] |
10 LAYERS OF ME
LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE
Name: aurora
Birth date: january 16th
Birth place: chicago, il
Current Location: tinley park, il
Eye Color: brown/hazel
Hair Color: black and blonde
Zodiac Sign: capricorn
LAYER TWO: ON THE INSIDE
Your heritage: norwegian, lithuanian, czechoslovakian, french, german, english, irish
What Shoes Did You Wear Today: my kmart flats
Your weakness: "giirrrrlll please!"
Your fears: my family dying
Your perfect pizza: spinach, tomatoes, pineapple, green and red peppers
Goal you'd like to achieve: live it up.
LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW:
Your most overused phrase online: "neat"
Your thoughts first waking up: "i have to pee..."
Your bedtime: between 2 AM and 6 AM
LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK:
Pepsi or Coke: pepsi
McDonald's or Burger King: taco bell
Single or group dates: single and group dates?
Adidas or Nike: adidas
Lipton Tea or Nestea: both but i'm drinking lipton right now
Chocolate or vanilla: both
Cappuccino or coffee: both
LAYER FIVE: DO/ARE YOU?
Smoke: yes
Cuss: no... i swear
Take a shower: rarely
Have a crush: big time
Think you've been in love: yes
Like high school: it was alright
Want to get married: yes
Believe in yourself: sometimes
Get motion sickness: not really
Think you're a health freak: if there's no chocolate around
Get along with your parents: 100%
Like thunderstorms: hell yeah
LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH
Drank alcohol: no
Gone on a date: yes?
Gone to the mall: yes
Been on stage: no
Eaten Sushi: no
Been dumped: no
Gone skating: no
Gone skinny dippin: no
Dyed your hair: that may have been longer than a month ago
LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER
Played a game that required removal of clothing: yes
Played Sex Me, seriously: i also do not know what that is
Gotten beaten up: by kelsi
Changed who you were to fit in: probably
LAYER EIGHT: GETTING OLDER
Age you hope to be married: 21
Numbers of Children: 2
Describe your dream wedding: inexpensive and rad
How do you want to die: quickly
LAYER NINE: IN A GAL/GUY
Best eye color?: green
Best hair color?: dark
Short or long hair: in between
LAYER TEN: IN THE NUMBERS
Number of people: ...?
Number of piercings: 5
Number of tattoos: 0
Number of times been on T.V.: not sure
Number of times my name has appeared in the Newspaper: 2 or 0
Number of scars on my body: more than 10
Number of things in my past that I regret: not sure
|
|
| WAAAAAAAAA! |
[18 Dec 2005|05:08pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 anxious |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Bright Eyes - It's Cool, We Can Still Be Friends |
] |
Update on my saving Christmas:
NOT AS EASY AS I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE.
moving forward...
Joe and I are planning a trip. We want to go to WAAAAAA in March.
Well... I want to anyway... Joe said he just wants "ocean and cliffs".
SO ALRIGHT.
|
|
| Arbor. |
[13 Dec 2005|05:40pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
domestic |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Radiohead - Kid A |
] |
I had a dream that I was in a really beautiful arbor at night, and it was sort of wet and there were black and white images projected onto someone of the vines/trees.
dream dictionary says:
Arbor
A fortunate omen for those involved in the arts, for others a warning against repeating hearsay.
|
|
| dreamin. |
[12 Dec 2005|07:45pm] |
I had three dreams just now... in one i was somehow signed up for the real world but it was super strict and i kept trying to find places to do whatever it was that was so taboo. but i remember my mom was there and also that they let me go home when i wanted to.
the second dream was about joe finding this picture online of this room in LA which i had apparently been to and some kid won an award for drawing it and my mom and joe and i were looking at the picture and somehow the shadow of my mom's hair made a really beautiful addition to the drawing.
the third dream was about joe's nephew telling me dirty jokes while i was in the back of a van, trying to get groceries out. i remember there was a giant tomato that looked like a pumpkin.
hopefully more will come to me.
|
|
| A Look Back: 2005 |
[09 Dec 2005|10:45am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
awake |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Death Cab for Cutie - Stability |
] |
Go to your Calendar and find the first entry for each month of 2005 (not including memes of course). Post the first line of it in your journal, and that's your "Year In Review".
Jan: College is driving me nuts.
Feb: Well. I keep finding ways to fuck up my life more.
Mar: today was... uneventful... sorry for even updating...
Apr: i am so very tired! spent the day at the mall.. whoo.
May: Whenever I get too cocky in life, God's hand always comes down.
June: this summer is gonna be rad... it's decidededededdeded!
July: Friday, Mark came over and picked me up from my dad's place in the city.
Aug: sometimes i don't feel like living.
Sep: "slightly used" describing my phone is really an understatement.
Oct: we're not fighting but I don't think we're happy right now.
Nov: bills are tough, man
Dec: i'm sick. i need kelsi.
wtf am i like the most depressing person ever?
|
|
| navigation |
| [ |
viewing |
| |
most recent entries |
] |
| [ |
go |
| |
earlier |
] |
|
|
|
|
